ch.115 i got lots of cool friends

God is always good to me.

All my freinds really care for me. I can tell them how i feel and they wil listen carefully to me. my ups and downs are all shared with freinds. Freinds whom i've know for 14 years or even longer, freinds from far away, freinds whom i've met in HK for just a year or so or even freinds of freind (which now became my freind) or my coworkers and even my boss, they r all so good to me.

some listened to me and just hung and sat with me when i needed a company,
some actually spent time with my mom becoz i m not around her,
some spared their home to let me cry it all out and picked me up from the street in 10 mins when i was so lost,
some gave me home appliances when i didn't even ask them to,
some encouraged me with simple words or quotes from powerful speakers,
some prayed with me,
some prayed for me,
some taught me lots of life experience,
some sent me little encouragement gift from far away,
all of them are there for me in all sorts of ways...

i m so blessed with all the freinds i have and i thank God for them.

even my brother and my lovely cousin, they r all so cool and good to me. this is some good life that i am having.

thanks to jen, mir, jacq, deb, bezz, agnes, wil, how, suzzana, da, wendy, charron, janfong, my coolest bro, jacquie, my lovely chris, benny the wise, tai, roy, bin, ga, steph, becca, gloria, shirley, fyn the women, glen the sexy, siuyan, dondon, rach, kitty, samuel my doctor, kaugor, sum the poet n k partner, miss pistol, mabel, miss pauline, raymond, amy, cyrus, julius the funny guy, clara shea, eddie, mingming, ruth, nellie, jackie, candice, asathor my teacher, yan, azura, mary, kylie, yukjair, and ar kar.

ch. 114 one hand can't clap

one hand can't clap.

i think i did something wrong too.

that leads to wht's happening right now. sigh..

ch.113 G.I.G.

God Is Good. I m really feeling a lot better.

I thank Him for all my prayers partners, for all the ppl who prayed for me.
this is amazing coz this must be God's work.
pray that i could continue to live and walk with God.

ch. 112 tvb queen

things that are happening.. they are just too crazy.

in His time. i know. i m learning to cope with all these.

drama is my name and i m so damn tired from work and shit in life.

i m so tired that when i blink, i need to close my eyes for 1 sec. my eyes r fucking dry.

i m asking you Lord, this is abit too much. wht's gonna happened after all these? pls show me the light. pls tell me that what i m experiencing is just part of your plan for my better future. i m really suffocating.

ch.111 ...

looks similar.. i think. y.. ? argh..

argh..

went to cheung chau had sea food tonite, n then went back out. enjoyed the sea breeze (that smelt like green apple) and talked wiht mir. have known her since 94, my gosh. God is gd to both of us.

went to gwen stefani's concert last nite, not that good coz the flow wasn't well planned..i think and it's like.. ppl not into the mood. but i m glad i spent time with the louey's sisters. they r cool.

so tired..but dun wanna sleep.

stock market went down like crazy. i wish i have more money to play.

I thank God for what i have now though. it's good. n i'll still keep praying for u and others in need.

ch.110 big apple

the annual report that i was invovled actually won the gold award under property at ARC. nice! and what's more is that it's gonna be competing in the best of show and best of overall annual report. the designer asked me to go to the dinner gala at NYC. haha. sweet. see if the client wanna go, if so, i'll force mr. boss to pay for my ticket n arrange me for a nice and fun trip at the big apple.

yay.

ch.109 just do it

have been saying a lot of "i wanna.. " these days.. but never really do it.
i guess i've always been like this.. always say "i wanna" but never really get things done.

yah, i do learn more about myself now.

figured.. u r right..

ch.108 conflicts

i wish to let go,
i wish to forget,
i wish to be happy,
i wish to move on...

... yet i can't stop praying for you.

even though you are not a good man,
even though you have hurt me with words and action...

... yet i can't stop praying for you...

but

i do not pray to be back with you,
i only pray that you will be back with God.

ch.107 prayer

dear god, pls gives T repentence leading him to the knowledge of the truth, so that he could be free from the captive of the evil. pray for his family and his freinds, so that they will know you. Please open the eyes of their heart, for them to listen to your words. Please also guard their hearts with the holy spirit and guide them to live a life with you.

Thank you for your blessings on me and my family.

i wish to praise you with him, Lord.

ch. 106 addiction attack

i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all thigns from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.

feels like bart simpson. lol.

Be focus.

ch. 105 六樓後座 & 我要戒lut...

I am loving my 六樓後座. like the comfy cozy feeling and the freedom of mind.

no more waiting for someone to call..
no more worrying for others.. for disappearing.. for not returning my call...

said soemthing very stupid today.. haha.. during the lunch with my boss and samuel.. about me working at GZ... i said.. then i'll have to 戒lut samuel la.. lol.. quite embarrassing..

but ya.. i really have to 戒lut XXX.

thx jen for staying over.

ch.104 so damn tired

So tired.

Some inspiration from today:

"Work as if you don't need any money,
Love as if nobody has hurt you,
Dance as if nobody is watching,
Sing as if nobody is listening,
Live as if you are in the paradise."

ch.103 老了十歲

Just suddenly had a crave with chinese pop lyrics.

The song title is 老了十歲.. which is another "4 letters words" given to me by a freind of mine. ha.. another freind gave me "3 letters words", which is "law-lai-jin". haha..

詞：林夕　
作曲：伍仲衡　
編曲/監製：伍仲衡

情緒　死了　元氣　散了
力氣　未夠令愛移調
和你　夢醒了　第三者彷佛必要
而你　樂意　被纏繞

＃怎想到我像被人隨便拋低的玩具
　還不知應要怪誰　難道我豁得出去
　怎想到你被別人狂追便成為伴侶
　善變沒有罪　卻是壯舉＃

＊良心可一敲即碎
　女人開始使我恐懼
　遺失了你才明白我會消失了生趣
　連心肝都可失去
　然後犧牲我的眼�
　讓我　為你難堪下去＊

難以　慘叫　唯有　苦笑
時間　為紀念你停掉
和你　避不了　指尖鬆脫的一秒
就似　自我　被焚燒

REPEAT＃＊

像老了十歲　巴不得一飲即醉
至少不必恐怕進睡
為一個你難承受痛苦是我的不對
消失的穢韝葚�
然後花光我的眼�
便會　累到無知睡去

Ch. 102 song sharing @ office

Song sharing with my coworkers.. haha.. n he showed me this one... 編織過的夢想 自已也可以抵達 誰說一定要有他...

btw, i've moved to my new place.. it's quite nice.. loving it now. :) going to GZ tmmr... and friday... sweet.


7.沒那麼愛他
詞/曲:徐婕兒

你有權利情緒化 你不一定要堅強 但有些事情
不能偽裝 別為自己設了框
我懂失去的悲傷 也懂進退的掙扎 但想起過去
都是失望 又何必要放不下
是習慣還是愛 不放心 還是不甘心 只有你自己知道解答

其實你沒有那麼愛他 真的不需要那麼想他
編織過的夢想 自已也可以抵達 誰說一定要有他
其實你沒有那麼愛他 沒有深陷到不可自拔
認清了真心話 你就放得下

深呼吸 抬頭望 發現天空很寬廣
這世界那麼大 幸福總會在某個地方

其實你沒有那麼愛他 真的不需要那麼想他
擁有過的計劃 留給值得的對象 你知道 不會是他
其實你沒有那麼愛他 沒有深陷到不可自拔
認清了真心話 你就放得下

ch.100 tired

so tired...

physically... didn't sleep till 4am and then woke up at 8am to help amy to register her wedding online. ha... (it's acatully full at 8:02am when the registration started at 8:00am!) n then just kept packing and walking to and fro MK and PE... n then up and down the apartment... n then finally.. started packing... just wanna sleep now.. argh.. but still got 50% to pack.. :(

mentally...keep telling myself: dun cry la. it's none of my business anymore. dun want fyn to come back and smack me. dun hate him. can't wait to wear the deep V and hang out with the gang.

o.. love the "whitfield afternoon tea".. love the smell...it just gets me away from the reality.

Ch. 99 抬起我的頭來

這首歌不好播　全是我的錯
我怎可再信任我耳朵
你卻迅速關起唱機　決定要我聽清楚
你說想三方都好過　不要兩邊滿座
我說你點你的火 我難自己的過

* 我的手這麼震 難受到興奮
如在生死關頭無遺憾
你說對她關心太少 我自信卻多得很
我快將一手掌紋 刻進滿杯裂痕
為何還著緊 杯中有你的初吻 *

# 抬出你親愛的前來 圍觀我一去不回來
拿出我僅有尊嚴來 宣佈你我再不相愛
抬起我低過的頭來 由始至終這些年來
如果你的愛心健在 用來害你所愛 #

ch.98 not that bad

went to GZ today... presentation, met the new team, lunch with client and walked around... the place is acatully not that bad..

ch.97 alanis morrisette

i always like the song "ironic" by alanis. just love the lyric coz life is just very ironic all the time. i think the song was out when i was in gr. 9 or 10..

i have started jogging since.. i need to get myself physically tired.
today, i m very very tired... after the moving from yesterday and also a long day of running around doing errands... it's just tiring.. i think im actully experiencing the tireness someone told me before...

n i'll be heading to GZ tmmr... argh.. still need to prep for tmmr's presntation.. :(

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"Ironic"

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

ch.96 charron's children are soo cute

went to have dinner with charron tonite and her children are so cute. the gal is 2 yrs old and the boy is less than 1. the little gal went crazy tonite, kept doing gymnastic. lol.. she's so funny. And she talked like an adult.. but in ways that i dun really undersatnd.. coz she mumbles. so cute. and the son.. fell asleep when he was drinking milk.. lol!

had a great dinner with charron. haven't seen her for ages and everyone's life is so interesting. i guess i'll see her more often when i got to GZ later on... gonna go to her place for "oak kay fan". hehe..

ch.95 life goes on

life goes on.

everything goes on.

work.. yay, i m manager now.

life goes on.

prayer goes on. will never stop for u.