ch.103 老了十歲

Just suddenly had a crave with chinese pop lyrics.

The song title is 老了十歲.. which is another "4 letters words" given to me by a freind of mine. ha.. another freind gave me "3 letters words", which is "law-lai-jin". haha..

詞：林夕　
作曲：伍仲衡　
編曲/監製：伍仲衡

情緒　死了　元氣　散了
力氣　未夠令愛移調
和你　夢醒了　第三者彷佛必要
而你　樂意　被纏繞

＃怎想到我像被人隨便拋低的玩具
　還不知應要怪誰　難道我豁得出去
　怎想到你被別人狂追便成為伴侶
　善變沒有罪　卻是壯舉＃

＊良心可一敲即碎
　女人開始使我恐懼
　遺失了你才明白我會消失了生趣
　連心肝都可失去
　然後犧牲我的眼�
　讓我　為你難堪下去＊

難以　慘叫　唯有　苦笑
時間　為紀念你停掉
和你　避不了　指尖鬆脫的一秒
就似　自我　被焚燒

REPEAT＃＊

像老了十歲　巴不得一飲即醉
至少不必恐怕進睡
為一個你難承受痛苦是我的不對
消失的穢韝葚�
然後花光我的眼�
便會　累到無知睡去

Ch. 102 song sharing @ office

Song sharing with my coworkers.. haha.. n he showed me this one... 編織過的夢想 自已也可以抵達 誰說一定要有他...

btw, i've moved to my new place.. it's quite nice.. loving it now. :) going to GZ tmmr... and friday... sweet.


7.沒那麼愛他
詞/曲:徐婕兒

你有權利情緒化 你不一定要堅強 但有些事情
不能偽裝 別為自己設了框
我懂失去的悲傷 也懂進退的掙扎 但想起過去
都是失望 又何必要放不下
是習慣還是愛 不放心 還是不甘心 只有你自己知道解答

其實你沒有那麼愛他 真的不需要那麼想他
編織過的夢想 自已也可以抵達 誰說一定要有他
其實你沒有那麼愛他 沒有深陷到不可自拔
認清了真心話 你就放得下

深呼吸 抬頭望 發現天空很寬廣
這世界那麼大 幸福總會在某個地方

其實你沒有那麼愛他 真的不需要那麼想他
擁有過的計劃 留給值得的對象 你知道 不會是他
其實你沒有那麼愛他 沒有深陷到不可自拔
認清了真心話 你就放得下

ch.100 tired

so tired...

physically... didn't sleep till 4am and then woke up at 8am to help amy to register her wedding online. ha... (it's acatully full at 8:02am when the registration started at 8:00am!) n then just kept packing and walking to and fro MK and PE... n then up and down the apartment... n then finally.. started packing... just wanna sleep now.. argh.. but still got 50% to pack.. :(

mentally...keep telling myself: dun cry la. it's none of my business anymore. dun want fyn to come back and smack me. dun hate him. can't wait to wear the deep V and hang out with the gang.

o.. love the "whitfield afternoon tea".. love the smell...it just gets me away from the reality.

Ch. 99 抬起我的頭來

這首歌不好播　全是我的錯
我怎可再信任我耳朵
你卻迅速關起唱機　決定要我聽清楚
你說想三方都好過　不要兩邊滿座
我說你點你的火 我難自己的過

* 我的手這麼震 難受到興奮
如在生死關頭無遺憾
你說對她關心太少 我自信卻多得很
我快將一手掌紋 刻進滿杯裂痕
為何還著緊 杯中有你的初吻 *

# 抬出你親愛的前來 圍觀我一去不回來
拿出我僅有尊嚴來 宣佈你我再不相愛
抬起我低過的頭來 由始至終這些年來
如果你的愛心健在 用來害你所愛 #

ch.98 not that bad

went to GZ today... presentation, met the new team, lunch with client and walked around... the place is acatully not that bad..

ch.97 alanis morrisette

i always like the song "ironic" by alanis. just love the lyric coz life is just very ironic all the time. i think the song was out when i was in gr. 9 or 10..

i have started jogging since.. i need to get myself physically tired.
today, i m very very tired... after the moving from yesterday and also a long day of running around doing errands... it's just tiring.. i think im actully experiencing the tireness someone told me before...

n i'll be heading to GZ tmmr... argh.. still need to prep for tmmr's presntation.. :(

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"Ironic"

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

ch.96 charron's children are soo cute

went to have dinner with charron tonite and her children are so cute. the gal is 2 yrs old and the boy is less than 1. the little gal went crazy tonite, kept doing gymnastic. lol.. she's so funny. And she talked like an adult.. but in ways that i dun really undersatnd.. coz she mumbles. so cute. and the son.. fell asleep when he was drinking milk.. lol!

had a great dinner with charron. haven't seen her for ages and everyone's life is so interesting. i guess i'll see her more often when i got to GZ later on... gonna go to her place for "oak kay fan". hehe..

ch.95 life goes on

life goes on.

everything goes on.

work.. yay, i m manager now.

life goes on.

prayer goes on. will never stop for u.

ch.94 walking through

praying to the Lord for the protection of your heart, your mind and your soul.

praying to the Lord for your family.

praying to the Lord for you.

ch.93 hangs

it just hangs...

day is ok.

nite is n just too long.

The night is just so long...

* may be i shd buy in 0922 now. ha
whtever.
whtever.
whtever.

argh.

it just hangs...

ch.92 still

how come it's still so painful
how come everything is still so vivid
how come i still can't sleep
how come i still dun wanna eat
how come i still can't harden my heart
how come i still can't get things over with
how come crazy things r still happening

YOU won't give me things that i can't handle.. but i really can't do this for too long...

all i can do is to keep praying for him. still...

ch. 91... apparently.. i can write

i've been writing lots of letters lately.. for work and personal.

for work, i acatully got praised by "THE" ppl about my writing skill. i m abit overwhelmed by that as they are "THE" pro.

for personal, i got no response from what I wrote...

but i have to admit that i express better by words than verbal communication. i hope you understand.

btw, someone is calling me "drama queen" now. haha.. coz of all the things happened to me... the two area in life that i tresaure and cherrish the most... that are on the top of the priority list.

i guess.. life is a drama.

ch. 90 understand

yes i understand now.

still love you tho~ :)

ch. 89 pain

it hurts so much.

can't use any words to describe.

i can't breath, i can't sleep, i can't eat and i can't see.

cried as much as i could, till my eyes can't open and my ears can't hear.

i think my heart stopped.

the pain grows bigger and bigger and deeper and deeper everyday.

people say time heals the pain... but my pain is rooted into my heart and it's growing everyday.

i should be mad, i should be angry, but i couldn't. i couldn't.

i love you. i really do love you. we were going to grow old together, we had all the things together. we complement each other. we had good foundation. we experienced all these together. our past doesn't worth a 2nd chance? i m willing to doo all things with you. i've changed. don't leave me.

ch. 88 Compatibility

M i compabtible with T?

i think at the beginning of the relationship, we talked about that, acatully, he talked about that.. he said wht makes the relationship work is to have good foundation and we r compatible. hmm... compatible as in we complete each other... it's not the chessy, goose bump saying.. he meant that he takes care of the external thigns and i take care of the internal.. and that makes a good team and that's compatible in his definition. i somekind agree and so far, things r working well between us because i m better at doign the small things.. i m more attention to details n he is soooo not. is that compatible? i hmm.... i just think that within comptaible, there's also comprimising, undertstanding, tolerating, forgiving, and not too great expectation of the other half... too much expectation leads to too great of disappointment n pain... n yah, i learn not to expect too much from T and everything else is bonus. haha..eg. i will not expect him for any romance and him bringing me out to Sphagetti house is a bonus. wahaha..

ch.87 YIPEE~~

My freind whom i've known since gr. 3 just rang me and told me that SHE IS GETTING MARRIED next yr !!!

i m soooo happy for her. She's one of my best friends that lasted for almost 20 yrs! 20 YEARS! wow. Me and her and three other girls were "the GANG" since gr 3 - gr 6.. and then she immigrated to new zealand and then me to toronto and then other girls to vancouver. We havent' seen each other since gr. 7. and then in this few yrs, allof us went back to HK to work and "the GANG" is back again. It is amazing how we all can enjoy each other's company w/o any stranger-feeling after all these years. And now, this girl, whom is the closest to me among all, is getting married!!! The feeling is amazing.

I duno how we could keep in touch for so many years, when i told my other friends, they were all amazed. Most have lost contact with freinds from HK after they immirgrated. I m really thankful for this relationship~ :)

ch.86 i m old and lost and have no money... can i be a child again?

at this moment, i m still refusing to grow up. so many things i needa take care by myself.. argh... so much better when i could just leave everythign to my mom and dad. ... but apparently, i can't now.
God, pls grant me wisdom for all the decision making, which way I can most glorify you? Please give me some hints...

ch.85 miracle life

i love this stability.

seems like everything's fine now.

I m enjoying this. God is good to us. The more I think about it, the more i think God has performed miracles.

ch.84 O, Happy Day

Tommy 決志 today!

OMG.

OMG.

Praise the LORD!

He came back from San Fran last thurs and today's the first time he came back to church. We had our drama team workshop today and had a good time trying to act. (We'll have X'mas drama at church! a professional HK Theatre actress, who's one of our fellowship members, is holding workshop to teach us, so much fun and blessed~) Anyway, after the workshop, we had our prayer time. I duno why, when it's time for ppl to say out what they wanna pray for, I immediately shout out loud to the ppl, first. i told them that Tommy is starting his job next Tues! everyone's happy for him. and then, since T's cantonese is not that good and so i kept talking (wahhaah.. ) and out of nowhere, i said to the ppl, pls pray for T's learning about God, i talked to him and he said he belived in God but still not too sure. n then, suddenly, this brother, who's actaully devoted himself as a missionary and he's studying theology now, asked T the questions. without hesitation, T said yes, he believes that God resurrected from the dead, that he accepted God as his personal saviour forever. N the brother immediately asked T to pray with him, saying after him, n T said yes. I was speechless. It was totally out of my imagination. I was just asking them to pray for Tommy and out of nowhere, Tommy said yes to the Lord.

I am speechless, Lord. You are truly one amazing, full of blessings, Lord.

Pls lead me and T to live our lives fully for You, Lord.

ch.83 GZ

finally started the Guangzhou project.

Today's my first day to GZ. Went there to interview the big boss of WCL . went there at 8:30am, got there at 10:30am.. n then back home at 6:30pm. What a tiring day. having sorethroat as well... aiya.. from cherry, i think. cherry's my co-worker.. a gal who is actually very similar to me but abit more "think it out loud". Anyway, i m feeling not too gd rite now.. just got back from bday dinner of my aunt, had a gd time = gd food. i hope i dind't make them sick as well. lol. my thinking is very fragmentated rite now coz i think i needa sleep. O, n janet is finally married! saw the pix of her wedding day from grace, seems like it was a very fun filling nite. i m so happy for her. O, n my T is having interview in HK, i pray for and with him about this and hopefully he could get it.

bloggin is fun,i like talking to myself. haha.