ch. 280 Be Joyful, Prayerful, Thankful

Have be living on this earth for awhile now, I am thankful every morning that I can still open my eyes and breath the fresh air and start my new journey. I do. 

Have been experiencing quite a few things in life as well but when i look back, everything was well planned. It's great about aging, so i can look back and see what God's plan was/ is for me when I am struggling in my current situations. 

Failure. broken heart. death of family. sickness. surgery. cheated on. relocated. God is treating me not bad, i gotta experience life. 

My current state is that my partner is quitting on me and I am on my own. met a guy who is living far far away and not sure what is going to happen. feeling a bit lost but this time is different.  my faith is strengthened from the past. my acceptance to the ups and downs in life has widened. 

I am learning to do the following and i would like to live my remaining life in these ways as well:
1. Be Joyful always
2. Pray continuously
3. Be Thankful in all circumstances
4. Do what pleases God.
5. Pray for what pleases God, not what pleases myself.
6. Guard my heart and mind as this is where action flows from.
7. Have faith in God.
8. Care for others.
9. Build stronger relationship with God by studying the Word persistently.
10. Don't give up.

Life is short, gotta learn how to live that pleases the creator. 

ch. 279 Training of my heart

I am a person without patience when it comes to love relationship.  I tend to fall for someone very easily and quickly. 

From my experience, this is not a good quality that I want to obtain cause I always got burnt at the end. 

I always can't guard my heart like what God has told me to. 

I am training my heart to take it slow now.  My feeling is still strong yet I am learning to take it slow. If this guy is who pleases God and if we r together, we make a strong team to glorify God, I'll be patience and wait upon God. 

It is not an easy task for me  but God does take care of me by sending angels around me to remind me to guard my heart. 

I will continue to pray for God's guidance and for my future partner whom God let to cuts in to dance with me. 

ch. 278 Dance with God

"Dance with God and He will let the perfect man cut it." 

God's timing is amazing.  As I was gearing up to live a happy and simple life on my own, someone showed up.

I am not sure if he is the one that pleases God but he is one that I can communicate like we are one.  Not exaggerating, but it's like he reads my mind n i read his. 

Jan's check list:
hobbies: hiking, traveling, running, love of food, explore new places - Checked
value: christian, personal relationship with God, worship team, compassion to others - Checked
Height: taller than me - checked (haha)
Food: Korean, Shanghainese, Italian - checked
Wine: pinot gris, riesling - checked
Personality: Fun, adventurous, leader - checked

Other than the above, of course we have lots of things that are not "checked" but noone is perfect. I am impressed with what are 'checked' already. 

We've know each other for 4 days n spent 3 days together. Sure sounds like a holiday infatuation to me but I would like to see if our "meet up" was what pleases God and if so, will there be a future to it.  

He is gorgeous. I hardly describe a man as gorgeous but his internal beauty, just gorgeous.  

I will continue to pray and see how God leads. 

one thing tho.. he is not anywhere close... that's a big problem... but if God gives green light, i m totally gonna be adventurous about it.

ch.277 freshly picked clams & plastic picking @ dBay

Jon, Jenn, Candy, Yolanda, Michael and I went to DBay to clean up the beach yesterdays. 5 of us, went there with a good heart to help out. The spilled plastic pellets were not as much as we imagined but many actually sunk into the sand and floated close to the shore line. So each of us basically face to the stone wall and sat on the sand for hours to pick out the plastic pellets. At some point, there were so many plastic garbages and so we helped clean that up as well. U cannot imagine how much garbage were there.. and so little that we could do even we spent hours there to clean. Shd really help out again & strongly recommend ppl to go and clean and help keep the green! While some of us were picking up the trash, some ppl went to pick up the clams off the shores. It's the calm season, my frd!! they picked a bucket off and we went to Jon's home to cook them with sake and ginger. AMAZING! My first time eating fresh-off-sea clams and they were so deliciously cooked. Koodo to Jon! Love it. Jon's apartment was basically a boy's dorm and totally reminded me of some old days.. haha.. it was fun knowing these younger generation and i guess i hope my experience (+ years of experience or making wrongs, can help them a bit in their lives). Didn't sleep too well last night and apparently some of them had the same situation, no clue why. I believe we had ENOUGH work out by the end of day. anyway, it was a blessed day to get to know my new friends and may God bless each of us with what He has planned for us.

ch. 276 batman & fong chung shun

went to the press preview of the movie of Batman: the dark knight rises with bro and his friends. Good movie! Fong chung shun and lo mic sheet were there too. it's july 2012, i quitted groupbuy and started dsml communications. met with shirley, carol, sally, jack, dr. ahn, rita, paul, etc. glad to have met them and all the opportunities they gave. have been doing home office since may and it is not easy. self discipline part is crazy as i m not a morning person.. waking up early is just .. not easy. realationship with God is good. TOL is lovely, enjoying it alot. Luke was born on 3rd May, love this kid. just love him. pray that he'll be a good kid who will glorify God. had my infatuation with M and it was bad. haha. what's going on with me. my mind is busy and training up myself with emo control and self control. o God, i need to work harder.

ch.275 life is gd and full of challenges

it's November already. it's been 4 months since my last blog and so many things had happened.

so many unexpected things that can happen... for the dec show, 2 bands instead of 1 band, working permit issue...

it's ok... i can overcome all these.

group buying are not making sales but so many things going on with DSML.

things need to 反醒 (thanks for knowing David, so i know how a super hard working and successful man thinks and does on a regular day, i m glad i met him, no regrets):
1. how i counteract with people: need to be less emotional and not as easy to be angry. 不要輕易發怒。watch my tongue, hold my temper, be gracious and think of others before criticizing.
2. need to learn how to appreciate others.. no matter their rank.
3. learn how to speak and think in other's peoples' shoes.
4. get out of the bed and get things done.
5. focus on one thing, get it done , then do the 2nd thing. Multi-tasking will just slow down everything. for me.
6. love my family and love my friends.
7. Don't calculate too much and have great faith in Him.
8. I need to commit to what i promised to do.


comments from my appraisal from boss:
1. committed
2. hard working
3. get along with internal and external ppl.

ch.274 no long no blog

haven't blogged for almost 1 yr.

i just realized how life has changed in such a short period.

Work: changed.
Living location: changed.
Style: changed.
Target: changed. haha

after the "bad break up" with my previous boss, i m now working at a very comfortable company. Still stress but not as much as before.And i m now partnering with B to work on DSML. yes. DSML, dow Sang Man Lan, my lovely grandparents. oo, how i miss them.

went to paris & london. super love. gonna go to italy this yr.

argh, thank G i m still living.

ch.273 argh

wht's with me?

low pay job with long working hours. wht the?

i m so tired of this field.

pls help me lord.

i need to pursue U rather than what i m doing now.

pls help me Lord.

ch.272 Lowry with Elaine

omg. what a great dinner tonite!

went with Elaine to lowry's at lee garden tonight. what a great gathering. The venue was nice, very classy.. the waitress were alrite.. can feel their 'kind impatience". Finally gotta chance to experience their "original ice salad", it was ok only, not as good as i expected.. i like japanese style more. The idea of serving it with cold fork was just some gimmick... can't really expereicne what's so special about that. We ordered the Fish of the day, sea bass, very nice and the english cut. It was very good. the 3 thin slices of beef was in medium and very soft and tender. good food indeed. I then ordered the Apple pie with vanilla gelato.. omg. that's amazing. i enjoyed it so much. The pie was made in an apple shape, meanign the crust are like the shape of an apple, so, half of the apple was presented on the plate. very yummmm and satisfied.

Elaine told me about her experience in the past 3 months, what a tough lady. lesson learnt tonight: try to stand on other ppl's shoe so that u can understaand them and make the situation better.
she did it with her cheated husband and they r trying very hard to get back together now.
i also felt the pain of hers.. n my mom.

I had such a strong feeling for B since last wk. Joke asked me for drink tonight with his frds and i didn't really wanna go but since B was there, i wanted to. But then, when i was on my way back home, on the 112 bus, i prayed to G that pls take away my feeling if it is nothing real n ImMEDIATELY, i meant, IMMEDIATELY, all my feelings were gone. n now, i m still very peaceful. How amazig is that.

Then after got back home, got a fb msg that mr. R asked me out this Fri. hmm.. but i dun hv feeling for him. what is it about G?

On also asked me out for dinner as well n we r meeting up on wed.

what is it about, G? i'll keep on praying n thx for listening. :)

ch.271 ice cream bak bak - wong bak

after the fun hot pot with the old cakes, i walked home. On my way back, i saw the familiar back of the old man, pushing his ice cream carts along boundary street. I have had an urge to help him before and tonight i finally took the courage and asked if he needed any help. He did. So i pushed his carts with him all the way to nathan road, then to the bridge on prince edward road. During our journey, we talked. Bascially, it was him telling him his stories. While helping him push his carts, lots of people looked at us. There was 1 lady even offered to help, which was very nice of her. I think there are still people who are willing to lead out a hand in hk. I m glad i took the courage to help mr. wong. At the end, he offered some drinks for me to take home. it was sweet and of coz i said no need.

I am glad i had the courage to hel him tonight. I felt very good afterwards. I wish to use what i have to help people in God's glory.

Lord, i need your guidiance and I thank you for tonight's experience.

ch.270 home cooking

invited my lovely J's fr home cooking dinner last night. What i served was hmm... turned out to be ok. :)

My dishes:
1. Guacamole with fresh celery and carrt sticks.. supposed to be lovely smoothie texture type of dip but since i have no idea how to pick avacodo, one of the 2 that i bought was still too young --> hard to eat/ mix as smoothie.. very.. crunchy. haha.
Thinking to cook them n see if i could mix it with something to eat with rice? haha. geezz... sounds quite .. hm...

2. Pumpkin soup. ok, this one was awesome! love it. the gals love it too. hehe. but i never expect cutting the pumpkin into pieces require so much power! for just 1/2 of the little pumpkin (japan pumpkim bought at sogo, btw), used up so much strength.. but the result was good.. the soup got texture and tasted very well.

3. tomato sauce with sphetti. Asked my brother how to make the sauce. So i used fresh tomatoes, tomato paste, ice sugar, onino n chicken broth. I unskinned the tomatoes by cutting the skin at the bottom part and drwoned it into a pot of hot water n the skin will rise it by itself after a few minutes.. soo amazing. I can have the tomato skin all peeled but still hv the string at the top.. so pretty. Anyway, the sauce tasted well and i m very proud of myself.

4. Lime chaffon cream pie from Janice. That was great. very very light and lovely crust. With the lemongrass drink after.. they were perfect match with each other.. super touching after hving these 2 lovely pieces.

It was great hving frds at my home and enjoying laughters and food. My tiny cozy space is perfect for frds to enjoy chitchat coz they got nowhere else to go but staying at where they r. :P

lovely wknd.
will cook more.

o, n the pasta with the tomata sauce, it was pefect.. al dente~ hehe..

ch.269 Cooking for 1

The carrot and the cucumber i bought last wknd is getting soft...
i m always thinking about what to cook on the bus ride during my way back home. What's inside the fridge? what I hv left.. like i had 1 onion and 1 sweet potato left.. how should i cook them...

so today, i wanted to cook rice and japanese curry so that i can bring lunch tmmr. Used the old cucumber and the omg-super-soft-duno-if-it's-still-eatable carrot. O, before, i went to park n shop to buy the curry sauce. Wanted to get those japanese cube curry but there's none at wellcome and so after introduced by the wellcome guy, i bought AMOY jpanese curry sauce. Checked the direction and look quite easy to so. OOO, before this, just wanted to add i actually bought 3 zuccini and 2 cucumber after work today for only $6!!! omg!!
anyway, so i started to chop things into pieces. Everything looked right. Then i started to boil water and mix the curry sauce in the bowl. After a few minutes.. didnt look right.. so "hey".. n so i added the chopped pieces of vege.. n still not right.. so i thought, hey i can use the sweet potato to make the 'gravy' kinda texture.. still not right.. n then i suddenly thought of corn starch! n so i immediately turned everything off and ran down to wellcome to get corn starch. Actully, i thought of "san fan" first.. but there's no 'san fan' at wellcome! so i called up my bro and asked if corn starch is similar to san fan.. i m glad my bro is such a good cook n he just solved my problem... n so, i got the corn starch home and mixed it with water n poured it into the watery curry sauce. Magic happened. Everything turned out to be quite nice afterwards, the taste, the texture and ya, the taste.. phewww... Then i poured the tastey sauce into my big bowl of rice and let them cool> JUST put them inside the fridge, as i totally forgot that i still hv them in the kitchen, good that i decided to blog. haha>> SO, there i hv my lovely lunch for tmmr.

lesson learnt, MUST hv corn starch at home.

O, i finally bought a bottle of soy sauce tonight.. N a bottle of X.O sauce.. just incase i dun wanna boil vege anymore but mixed them with this sauce instead..


Finished zipping my hot lemongrass drink... felt so good.

cooking is actully not hard.. just hv to keep practicing as there r so many things u can expect.........

ch. 268 living alone

Living alone is good, i hv the freedom to do whatever whenever. Moving out the 3rd time, i realized, I've grown up mentally.


1. I can sleep on the sofa till rigt after work n woke up at 4am n then sleep walk back to my bed to continue my sleep.

2. I can throw all my clothes out on the sofa n other places, actaully, all over the places without any yelling. But of coz i know i have to clean everything up at the end.. but hving a messy place feel quite good.

3. When all blinds are down, i can dress whatever i want.

4. I can cook all the things that I want, esp. when i am living in such a convenient location. Last night, i tried to fried fish fillet, baked sweet potato chips, fried broccoli with lots of garlic, and boiled a soup. The fish tasted good, other that i am not too sure how to control the power of the electronic stove.. n so my pan kinda got burn... but the fish tasted well, i only used salt, pepper and onion to prepare it and it turned out to be quite good. As for the sweet potato chips, i bought those japanese purple one, which the original taste is super sweet already. BUt i failed. the frist round turned out to be burn, yes, n that smelt quite bad.. n then i did ok on the 2nd adn 3rd round, but nothing close to what's described on the cookbook. I'll try again. For my 3rd dish, the fried brocoli, it turned out to be not bad, i tried that before n i think i've gained wisdom from the previous failure and this time, it's more than eatable. haha.. as for the soup, it's very good as usual as i only have to wash all the ingredients, boiled the meat before, n then pour everything in in 1 big bowl. Other than those, i tried those japanese "Mo" beans as well. I found this place that's only selling $8/'gun"! i got lots for $8! those were my snacks for the last wk while i was watching the tvb late night drama. haha.. n today, i boiled the lemongrass ibought from kln city with gigner and ice sugar to make a drink. IT IS SO REFRESHING! it is sooo easy to make and cheap but it turned out to be sooo amazing. I think i m falling in love with cooking coz the feeling of accomplishment is big. PLus i like to eat and try all sorts of things. yay.

5. jogging at 730pm/ 8pm/ 6pm/ anything i want near my home. I told myself I must at least jog/walk around the park 5 times everytime I go and the feeling is very great after exercising.

6. Buying fresh flowers cheap. MY place is soo close to the flower market and i can just go buy a bunch of fresh flowers for my home. The home is alot more 'alive' with a touch of the flowers.

7. Wathc tv/ film online till late nite on my sofa.... that's a great feeling.

8. N i found that i got detox every wknd. seriously, i 'detox' sooo badly during the wknd, which is a good thing coz during the wk, i guess due to stress, i dun go at all. haha.. so i m literally full of shit at work. haha. lamo

9. i tend to clean up my place quite often. I sweep the floor almost every night n i actually kneel down to wash the floor to make sure it's all clean. I wash the toilet everyday and kitchen is very much cleaned everyday. wow. i've defintiely changed. Or may be i can't ignore the dirt since this place is so tiny.

10. I can't think of pt. 10.

darn.

ch.267 new start

Celebration of my 30th bday:

tivo & melting pot- great ppl. bad hang over.
n went to tutor big cow at 10am. amazing... then tutor at EC from 3-5. amazing.
balalaika - family. crazy russian music.

work
-igoo
-strelitzia
-big cow
-ec
-omp

never been so busy before.

health
-horrible neck allergy.. may be due to stress.

church
-enjoying worship team & cell group

praise the lord.

ch.266 blah

have u ever sat infront of the computer from the moment you woke up till... the moment u closed your eyes?

that's my life for now.

blah.

ch.265 30's blues

I like music. I go to live Gigs to enjoy music with friends and a glass of red wine on my hand.

With music, friends and red wine on my side, i feel like i m on top of the world and everything else, is left behind.

Was talking to my aunt about my recent feeling and she said i m having my "30's blues". yes, i think i m hving that indeed. i m easy to cry, feeling abit depress at times and always compare myself to others.. my friends. Not a good feeling at all. This jobless thing, entrepreneur adventure, working at home idea.... somehow is dragging me? or is it just somethign i made up for my laziness. My excuse of not getting a "job". What exactly m i passionate about? What do I want to do with my life? As Jen said, are we going for a mediocore life? R we so not easy to satisfy? We r not feeling content. Do we know what we want? I think this "30's blues" is conteminating. My friends are hving similar symtoms as well, always questioning about the presence status.

May be coz we can't be easily content? May be after critizing all the rest of the ppl, we r the ones who r not passionate about life and hv no clue of what we want? Yes, i know i should pray n give my burdens to G but i think i should change my attitude and do somethign too.

o, this blues is somewhat low... the sound of it is making me sick.

ch.264 Be genuine

you never know when you'll meet your "chance".

along the path of your life, you meet many people. Some you remember but don't keep in touch; some you don't want to remmeber, but they always pop up in your mind; some you met and will never meet again; some you hung out wiht all the time but you never do now; some you met during 1 occasion and the friendship last forever; some you meet everyweek, but just don't click. There are many many occassions that you'll meet people. There are so many ppl appeared in your life, and you'll never know how they will lead you life into another path.

I met FS & Ken 2 yrs ago for a project. That project last for 8 months and we got along very well. Thx to fb n msn, we still keep in touch after the project is over. WE don't hang out but we keep each other updated on what's going on and shout out on fb at times.

Today, i went to FS's place to check out his dog (who bite me!!! yes, there was blood involved!) and of coz to get my macbook pro back. He asked me to be his producer. that's great. realy. never thought about that. I actaully got myself invovled with the "cool" people. MY definition of cool is those amazing talents that work in the industry. The top of the cream. I guess it's my genuinity that made people likes to be friedns with me. When i think about it, well, of coz i clicked wtih them as well.. but there were other ppl involved in taht project and somehow i m the only one who stuck around n actaully keeps up with the freindship. I think being genuine to people lead to good end.

This also applies to the previous project at EM. Finished the project, went to client's office to chit chat and follow up and the client introduced me to her collegaue and now i got another job. OF coz i spent 100% care on this project and people do now. Fakig it doesn't work, my dear friends. please stop it. Just be genuine and things will lead you to a good end. You don't when but when time comes, you'll be amazed.

God is definitely the source of my discipline. So if you duno Him, get to know Him.

ch.263 need a man?

my macbook pro is here. I m feeling all good and happy and can't wait to get everything installed and work with my new baby. I m using a usb modem to get online coz it's more flexible and I can go online anywhere. WEll, apparently, that usb modem coulnd't be used in my old mac G4 coz my G4 is too outdated. So, for the past 4 months, i've been using a PC to go online and it's quite frustrating to transfer files from mac then to pc just to email them out. So, i m quite excited to have my new macbookrpo here so that i can do everything by 1 computer.

but crap! the OS of my new mac is TOO NEW and i coulnd't get online because the modem doesn't support this OS. yet. So i went to 3 and asked wth? n they said they hv no idea when the modem will be compatible with the OS.

can u understand my 無奈ness? i was pissed. it's just too ridiculous to happen. seriously.

Well, all these happened when FS was here. I had lunch with him and then showed him my grandpa's rolleiflex. He cleaned it n said he can help fix it. Then he helped me to install my wifi printer. Then he brought my mac home n helped me to reinstall OS and other softwares.

well, there's nothing between us, i m pretty sure about that. But, it's good to hv a man around to help out.

ch.262 signs of aging

OK, so i m approaching to my 30.... for less than 17 days.

recently, withint these few months, i see the "signs" of .. huh.. umm.. getting more mature.. both phyically & mentally.

Sign #1: rashes
I have never had rashes ever in my life. All of a sudden, since last week, out of nowhere, rashes started to appear around my neck.. there's this one that totally looks like a hicky (ha)n then some at the back n on the side of my neck. My goodness,and they are itchy too! i think the weather is one of the causes since it's been so darn hot these few days. "Warnings" of heat wave were in hk continuous for 9 days!

Sign #2: AllerIES
I am never allergic to ANYTHING. ALl of a sudden, starting this year, actually after 29, i m suddenly allegic to lobster. yes, lobster, good that i dun hv that too often. And i think shell animals in general.. coz i found my throat is feeling irritated after eating the tasty fresh shrimp tipped with tomato sauce.. o.. how i miss that. Other than the shell food, i m also allergic to dust. HA! yes, to dust. the 1st month i moved to my grandma's place, i sneezed off almost 1 box of tissue paper everyday after i woke up. Everything's fine after the maid cleaned te curtain.

Sign #3: Hot drinks only
no matter how crazy hot it is in hk, i only order hot drinks. Either that or alcohol. haha. Dun feel like hving cold drinks at all.

Sign #4: Bitter melon tastes pretty good, babe.
so I heard when u get mature, ur taste buds start to be less sensitive and u'll enjoy eating bitter food more. I started to eat bitter melon last year.

Sign #5: Family aging.. or dying
My dad is getting so much older n so are my aunts and uncles. It's not easy to cope with the reality seeing someone that was so youthful and now deteriorating days after days. Went to the cemetary to visit my grandpa & grandma, n my grandpa's sisters & husband. The whole generation is now back home. a.. i miss them so much.

Sign #6: Friends starting to have kids and they got on ur nerves!
Not many of my freinds are married. Some just got married for 1-2 yrs and blessed as they are, their next gerneation will be joining our big party next year. A small amount of my friends got kids that are a few years old, they r cute but i dun think i m ready to hv my own child. .. hmm.. when will i be ready?

Sign #7: "Kids" are getting married too!
Friends who are younger than me are getting married. Period.

Sign #8: no more K.
It's a waste of time & money.. well, to me, it is. I will go to birthday K or big group gathering K, but if u asked me what I'd do duing my free time, "K" is not in my dictionary. That's a sign becuase i used to go K every week when i was in highschool.. i go for drinking parties every weeknd during uni years. haha.

Sign #9: Love spending money on good food with good friends for a good time chat.
So enjoyable. live music is one of the elements too. I like opening a bottle of red with a friend n just enjoy the music n chit chat for the whole night.

Sign #10: Thinking about What's going on with my life.
most of my friends hv this question during this year... got a job, stable life. go to work, go out for drinks n dinner n parties, back to work, go out, back to work. What's more in life? everyone's starting to "think".

ch.261 hate to wait

hate to wait.
wht's with this.

tennis is really fun. seems like it's not a 3 min thing for me.