Tuesday, August 13, 2013

ch. 281 night under T3

i feel so pressured. 

I thought i've overcame the stress but seems everythign is starting now. 

V's death was shocking and i really thank her for what she has done for my dad. i truly appreciate. 

have been spending so much time with dad the past 7 days and it is not easy. i haven't spend time with him for so long, so frequent for ages. it hit me when i figured i missed out so much of his life after he got married.  yes, this is life. and it would be awkward for me to join the activities. I actually wouldnt' go. but it really hit me harsh that i actually didn't know what my dad did, not after i saw those pictures than i realised he is a stranger to me.  that hit me harsh. 

shd i move in with dad? is that what God wanted me to do? pls show me what your plan. You have already been very outspoken to me during the past 7 days and pls continue to do so as i m not smart and i really need more direction from you, lord. 

my feelings toward HW is still strong, yup, after 5 months.  i really appreciate his kindness towards me and he is a very gd friend.  and yes, the location is a problem. we won't work due to the distance. it can't work. so lord, pls help me to forget about him if we won't work out. 

lord. u continue to show me your faithfulness and i shd have my trust in you. i thank u for things you have prepared for me and please guard my mind n heart and give me peace to go through all these. 

lord i need you.  

i m serious about leaving hk tmmr.  but there might be T8. is this the way for u to stop me to do crazy things? 

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