ch.39 The future hotline

The "Future Hotline"?

I took this pic awhile ago when I was at GuangZhao with my dad. It's printed on the walls of a construction site. I found it quite funny. Future hotline.. hmm.. lol.

I guess everyone wants to know about our own future. Who are we gonna married? When will I die? What will I be doing 5 years from now? Will I get a job tomorrow? Will it rain tomorrow? lots of questions in the future tense. If there was a 'hotline' that we could call, i think everyone will be spending all their time dialing the number and their "future" is = addiction to the future, neglection of the presence. The unknown is always so much more interesting than the known.
May be not knowing somehoe gives us hope (false hope?) and so lots of people try different channels to get to the unknown.

Being a Christian, we are blessed. We know what will happened: Our Lord is coming back. With this big picture in mind, all we have to do is to fulfill our earthly duty: lead more peopel to Christ. Yes, we do feel confuse, sad, helpless, worry at times, but as long as we know that the Lord is with us, we can turn all our burdens away and just concentrate to live our life fully with what the Lord has prepared for us.

ch.38 de + sig"h"

Definition of "De":
1) Do or make the opposite of; reverse
2) Remove or remove from
3) Out of
4) Reduce

Definition of "Sigh":
1) To exhale audibly in a long deep breath, as in weariness or relief.
2) To feel longing or grief; yearn.

The combine meaning of "de-sign/h" = not to feel bad!
What a great way to feel about life!

how i love to be a design/her.

ch.3716 hrs 38 mins

The hills are ALIVE~~~~~~~~
yah, i'm done with my crazy 16 hrs mountain walking/climbing/short-of-breath-to-talk-at-all fund raising trip.
It was HARSH! but fun and great for will power trainig.

by the end of the trip, i was so exhausted i couldn't say a word and i fell asleep on the cafeteria table. I couldn't feel my legs and i totally got the new definition of "exhaustion" in my dictionary.

My teammates included Roy, Tai and leslie. i dun wanna believe it at first but i have to admit that woman's physical condition is really not as good as men's. on my way up a super steep hill, i had to stop quite often to catch my breath. my teammates didn't leave me but waited for me. that's super sweet coz i know from fact that some ppl from other team acatully left the less-physically-equipped teammate behind, which was such a selfish act. Anyway, we climbed to at least 3 hills and man, i m telling ya, the air up there is super fresh, cool and nice~~ totally miss that feeling right now, surrounded by the cool air, countless mountain tops and the night scene of shatin. The scenaries were fantastic and all the hardwork of going up and down the hills all worth it.

anyway, my legs are still in pain, not quite able to walk down the stairs yet.. m i glad that i dun have to work. lol.

well, the trip is like the great touch to end my relax-jobless-mood. I m all refreshed and ready for my another journey of my days on earth.

ch.36 fun lovin' life

Since i m out of job, I have so much free time to experience other things. Here are a few things that i did within these 5 days:
1) Reading.
Books that i'm reading are Da Vinci Code(still, haha.. but it's really gd!!), What is the color of my parachute(one of my nicest co-workers lend me that, it's about career changes/job hunt/to understand myself more. It's nothign but boring like other self-help book, lol), The secret inside the paintings (that's real interesting, the author talked about 100 paintings from the old days to the modern era. Catogarized by women, men, nature and religion. It tells the story behind each painting and those 8-por stuff about the painters. haha. definitiely my cup of tea~),
2) Going out.
I've met some interesting people these five days. My church is hiring new pastor and the Bible study group that's held on wed was lead by him. His name is Dale Johnson and he's been serving in the middle east for 14 yrs. he's the expert in arabic language and he's the arebic adversor in the movie, Passion of the Christ. He has also studied 1 yr in China and now he's here in HK with his wife. He lead us through the first chapter of Roman on wed night and it's quite intriging coz i still remember what he said. Other than him, i met Cheung Chan Ork. haha. Went to his Gig at this bar last night with my lovely guys: tai, roy and gay. Finally gotta see mr. Cheung in person. I've been listening to his songs for awhile and reaidng his interviews made me wanna see wht kinda guy he is. Well, didn't really get to talk to him but the feeling of seeing him in person is cool enough. Singing his songs with him were great. haha. One more person is this gallery coordinator at Shang Hai Street. Shang Hai street is located at Yau Ma Tei, some really old district with old buildings and mainland china immigrants, hookers, gangsters and drug addicts. Well, i walked over there yesterday with my dad to buy medicine and foudn this gallery, "Shang Hai Street Art Space" at one corner. Went in, talked to her and she's a photographer. She said i m welcome to book a timeslot at the gallery to show my work. ha. how nice that would be! and i m thinking about that. hehe.
3) Watching moviesssss
Joined a movie club. now it only cost me hk$28 for one movie! wahahaha. and i could rend free dvds and magazines!! how nice is that! The place is at Yau Ma Tei, the Broadway Cinematheque, a walking distance from my home. I watched "Motorcycle diary" and "Super size me". Both are not mainstream movies but i enjoyed them alot. The first one is about Che, the cuban revolution leader, well, it's about him in his early 20s travelling around central america with his freind. How the travel has bewildered his perspective in life. The 2nd movie is about this guy who's in this experiment of eating Mcdonald's for 30 days, 3 times/ day. Totally made me dun wanna eat old Mc anymore.

Things that i'll do now: going to the Design exihibition at convention centre!!! hehehe.. and then go check up my teeth with this dentist, who was a highsch friend of my bro. hope that he's hot. haha.
Things i'll do tmmr: my fun lovin' 16hrs mountain walking!! The lady who does the cleaning of my house acatully worries about me and will go with me. haha.. She's cool and fun and she's the expert in mountain walking.

ch.35 God's work: Raymond K.

duno if u guys remembered the 889 DJ called Raymond? he's back in hk and we r attending the same church. He's studying theology at hk right now. Very nice man.

He just called me and prayed with me on the phone. It was amazing.
it was my first time praying with a friend through the phone. And it was Raymond, the cocky-dj-used-to-be!
That's totally God's work.

I remember the first impression i had for him is this cocky guy who think he's all that. I met him when i was working at 889 one summer. he rarely talks to ppl and whenver he talks, he just inch ppl and say things that put ppl down. I dun like him at all.

When i got back to hk and saw him attending the same church as i m, i was so surprised. I didn't wanan talk to him coz the impression of his cockiness is still there. But then, he has changed. he's became this mr. nice guy who is so passionate about God. He's acatully studying theology and wanting to be a missonary. wht other conclusion can i make except this is God's work. raymond has transformed after he met Christ. And he acatulyl prayed with me on the phone. how amazing is that!

God's so cool. Another evidence of Him being the omnipower God.

ch.34 A day to remember

Things that happened today:
1) i quitted my job.
2) Stress attack.
3) Food poinsoning.

yah, so i handed in my resignation letter today at 6pm. The boss told us to think about it and she welcome us to go back. I was abit shaked, but then, nah, not gonan go back. That's not what i wanted. However, after handed in my letter, suddenly i found myself lack of breath. Couldn't breath and got cold sweat.
i was ok at the beginning of my journey home, but when i m almost home, i sweat like crazy, cold sweat n my stomach hurt so much. I thought tis' just my normal stomache, so i just lied on my bed and try to sleep and hopefully it'l be better soon (well, that worked before~) but then, after 2 hrs, still feel the pain. and I couldnt' lie there anymore n went to the washroom. There, the amazing puke-and-'all'-marathon happened. o man, i was like, puke for 2 mins, then 'all' for 3 mins and on and on.. soooo sun fu! N the things i puked out were the sphegette that i had for lunch. ALL were out. I wanted to laugh coz the sphegette looks like they haven't got chewed at all.. but then iwas too "sun fu" and lack of energy to do anything.. n yah, occupied by the serious diarrhea. Horrible experience. SO i told my dad and said that i got food poisoning and he hurried got me to the ER. I felt much better at the ER but still went to the john for a few times. after waiting for an hr, got called in, and they shoot a needle on my bum. and totally felt the medicine running thru my right leg to my left. I thought i could leave but the nurse told me to wait for an hr to see if i show any allergy to the medicine. Thank God i didn't.

During the waiting, i gotta chance to talk to my dad. Just some usual stuff and felt really gd. And when i called my bro, he said he experienced that once too and it's gd to have someone to share experience with.

aynway, me super weak now. not gonna go to work tmmr. ha, right after i resigned, how cool is that. man, i've been sick once a month since i got this job. may be due tot he 2nd hand smoke.

ch.33 hanging out

i love hanging out with my friends.

found this nice upstair cafe at mongkok n hung out with my Tor friends over there for the whole nite last nite. Felt like back to the old days at Tor. back to those "168 - big-2-magazines" days. haha.
it was lots of fun. we just played big-2, blow water, n enjoyed ourselves. it's even more fun than before coz it's so precious.

A friend said that i've became this "sad" person after i m back.
am I really?
when he said that to me, i was quite in shock. but then when i think about it.. i think the
'sad' part of me has somehow grown bigger ever since i came back. He said to me that i shoudl go back. ha.
well, i immediately cheered myself up n talked n joke around. that mad me felt good. I haven't been so cheerful for awhile.

but his question triggered my thought.. i acatully became 'sad' when im back. that doesn't sound right... hmm...

anyway, i love hanging out with friends. i mean real freinds. coz we say all sorts of things: the mo liu jokes, the stupiest comment, the 'noone-laugh-at-joke', and, the truth.

i need more dozes of the "hangout pills" to sustain my life in hk.
come back, my friends! hehe..

ch.32

『不是路已走到盡頭，而是該轉彎了』
這句話其實很有意思

當你遇到一件事，已無法解決，甚至是已經影響到你的生活、心情時， 何不停下腳步，暫時的想一想是否有轉闤的空間，或許換種方法，換條路走事情便會簡單點。 但，通常在那一刻，我們並來不及想到這些，只是一昧的在原地踏步、繞圈，讓自己一直的陷在痛苦的深淵中，生命中總有挫折，那不是盡頭，只是在提醒你：該轉彎了！ 放手不代表承認失敗， 放手只是為自己再找另一條路走！！


cried after work. *hint*: shd start looking for a new job.

ch. 31 Sim chung Sim

went to watched AARON KWOK's concert last night.
man, he is FIT!!! n i mean it.. way to go, can't believe he's 37 already~~
anyway, his dance moves were AWESOME! n the group dance, just "wow!"
but then, when he started to sing the slow songs... i m pretty sure the line up at the wc was quite long.
well, the show was a good show overall and it totally brought me back to my pre-Toronto days. All the "yes cards!"(which i think i still have them~), the "sim chung sim", "aaron is the best" haha.. quite alot of fun those days..

man, i have to work tmmr(sun)~ argh!

ch.30b where is a?

this is Ch.30b becoz my original ch.30 has disappeared. I remmeber i wrote ch.30 and posted it few days ago.. but mm... it just disappeared without me deleting it... how weird.

i remembered i wrote about my boss on 30a.. o.. spooky..

anyway, i've been eating like crazy for the past 2 days. Went to have buffet last nite with x-dan ppl and then tonite, my grandma's bday dinner. man, i was and am still so full that i wanna puke. LITERALLY. and yah, gained weight, of coz. haha. but man, the food at the buffet was really gd. they got chinese, western, japanese, indian, thai, bbq, salad bar, appetizers, AWESOME desserts. And for tonite, wonderful wonderful chinese food. couldn't resist.
and yah.. i'll go exercise tmmr..

ch.29 my brother

" of course, people wil change, that's why, you have to think about it and if frustrated, there's always the Father Up There who could help you right? "

Talked to my brother thru msn tonite. It was his first time using Msn n he asked me wht that is.. kinda funny.. my "in" bro knows nothign about computer. lol. He's in toronto rite now n i miss him dearly. My family is having quite some problems lately and i duno who to talk to. My brother is the best candidate and tonite he just popped up in msn when i needed to talk the most. hallelujah to God's timing. I shared with him about my job, he shared with me his experience and i think that' just so nice. After talking to him, i felt much better and the best thing is that he showed me his faith upon Him, feel so great to know that my bro actually didn't get lost in his "entertainment career" but still keeping his faith as gd as before.

God is so good to me, a wonderful brother, a kind dad and a considerate mom. wht else shd i ask for?

ch.28 10.5 months after Urbana

Today's worship was a hillsong conference sharing worship. 7 ppl from my church went to the hillsong conference at australia in july. The worship team lead us with the songs that they learnt from hillsong and they shared their experience with us. They showed us the pictures at the conference and some videos that they took. That totally reminded me of Urbana. The times in Urbana are still vividly in my mind. I remembered the workshops that i went to, I remembed i cried at the worship, i remembered i surrendered to the Lord.

Can't beleive it's been 10 months since then, so many things happened in my life. I can tell u for sure that the Lord is watching over me. Through my ups and lows, He's there: When i was weak, He gave me strength; when i was sad, He gave me peace; When I was lonely, He made sure i know how to enjoy it and kept sending friends to me; When i hated myself, He told me that He loves me; When i forgot about Him, He didn't forget about me.

"I lift up my eyes to the hills---
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip---
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord watches over you ---
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all harm---
he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and for evermore." Psalm121

(This is the passage that we shared at the 2nd cell of x-dan.)

ch.27 EQ level upgraded

got scolded again today.. right before i got off work. how nice. totally made my day.
.... how i wanna go to work tomorrow.

if i got scolded with a gd reason, i m fine with it. but due to stupid-pms-reasons, wht the?

not happy at all which made me miss the person more.

i dun wanna hate my boss coz if i do, i dun think i can work there any more.
i dun like the job search process..
wht a gd way to practice my patience.

EQ level upgraded. nice.

ch.26 can't stop eating

omg. i can't stop eating today.
quite busy in the morning, then after my fruity lunch, i just kept on eating.
a bag of maltesers (YUM!), then oreo, then instand noodle with lots of food, then shrip chips, then some chinese snack from my grandma, n now a cup of coffee.

i guess there's only one reason: i m depress.

n i still wanna eat.

lol.

nooooooooooooooooooo... !

gotta pick up joggin tmmr.. *O*

ch.25 x-dan 2

2nd meeting for x-dan tonite.
it was great.
we held it at Wil's place at Ma On Shan, quite far away but we gotta walked to the shore at night, which is very enjoyable.
felt so great to share n pray with the gang.
glad that we have this thing done.
praise the Lord.

ch. 24 Happy goodbye

Never knew 2 weeks are that short.
Never knew that a goodbye can be a happy one.

well,
Of coz i miss the person.
Of coz i dun want the person to go.

but,
the memories will never be forgotten;
the things we shared will be kept forever.

and,
when i think about it, it's amazing how i have met this person out of all the others in this world.

so,
i shd be thankful aobut the good memories that my Lord has blessed me with,
and,
not be sad about the person leaving.

may be,
we'll meet again soon.

ch.23 ......

shoulder was there...
+ mood
+ right words
+ my sudden rational mind

then i missed it.
there... i lost it.

sleepless.

ch.22 A dream of grey

We live so far away, but we met at this tiny place.
We walked through the sea of ppl, also each others' mind.
Under the starry night, we talked about our lives.
We were in awe cause we are so alike.
Perfect people, perfect timing, but what can u do with the wrong match of place.
This is just a dream if you continue your way.
A dream of grey.

ch.21 Friends

I always think.. it's so amazing that me and u met and became friends.
In this over-populated world, with the perfect timing, the perfect place, the perfect chemisty.
Are we destined to meet?
I think so.
Is there a purpose?
I think so.

How i m glad that I've met u.

ch.21 Wan Chai

Went to explore WanChai with my design teammate tonite. We went to a street that has lots of toy stores, retro-toys, mostly. Then we went to check out a mall called "188" and i got some awesome CDs with gd deals.
Most of the buildings in that area are built long long time ago and my friend said that they r gonna be torn down soon. wht a pity. All the history will be down with the ashes. I guess that's life. We'll be ashes sooner or later.
Anyway, had a very nice talk with the gal over dinner. Finally met someone as crazy as i m in hk. She studied film as her undergrad and it's so much fun to talk to her about the film and music and life. We just talked about anything, everything. From voting result to recognizing we both have split personalities.. lol..
well, thank God for giving me this funny gal as my teammate.. since i have to be with her 6 days in a week, 9 hrs a day.