ch.242 Moving again

today is the packing day for me. moving out of PE to TP or may be it's GZ.

pastor D & Joanne came n get the sofa, the bed and other stuff. Solomon & Alex came n got the tv and the tv table. now i m cleaning up stuff that i dun need and throwing stuff away.

feelin a bit low for now as i feel qutie alone doin all these. always wanted to have someone here with me. i'd hv to admit i m not that strong.

i bought egg tarts for solo n alex. m i really too nice to ppl? i take care of ppl and think for them too much without caring for myself. it's supposed to be a good thing right? at this down moment of my life, i really need to depend on G. listen to my pray during my distress. God is here with me and i m not alone. all these sadness n loneliness r from the other side. o, i suddenly feel alot better now. wow, this is amazing. i m just thinking it out loud and i m expereincing the change inside me now.

Pray for the india ppl, the world is in its end? G, let me know what i shd do for u at this time, during my days on earth. As i want to fulfill my purpose on earth for U. really. the P&W idea, pls teach me how to do it. also, how to deal with my duties on earth.

ch. 241 6 months

was told that i was only given 6 months to try out in GZ.
hmm... relief? relax? not, none of these two.
had lunch with Kevin of SZ today. He said it took him 1 yr to really get himself to feel better in SZ. it was a good time spend today for lunch. gotta know more ppl and he's kinda cute. haha.
lots to do tmmr n the coming wk.
can't believe the client picked those 2 names but what could be done?

don't give up.

"it's a very hard feeling to be questioned..." - s+e

moving out of PE to dad's place this sunday. sat will be the pick up days by everybody. solomon & alexander. lolz. that's really quite funny. pastor D and wife, pauline and raymond. that's great. i m glad the things i hv ppl found them useful.

will be back to hk this friday.. hopefully the time will be well spent there.

ch.240 tear of joy

went to Nick Vujicic's event tonite. tears kept coming out of my eyes from the beginning til the end.

still praying for mir and jacquie. I m happy for jacquie tho, she is willing to know more. i have to keep praying for her.

also, reivial hk. the idea of P&W is more confirmed. How to do? still need more prayers. dear G, i wanna do somethign for u,pls let me know.

ch.239 friday night

no worship team practice. without notice. acatully, noticed at 8pm. kinda piss at this unorganize schedule. i dun work around his schedule.
missed charron's husband's bday party. missed the chance ot meet new friends. due to the unorganization of the highsch kid.
went jogging instead. ran like crazy and sweat like crazy. walked from tst to home afterward. had caramel latte on the way home.. felt good. i dun even feel tired at all. weird

went to shunde for the project today. 1 client 1 day. wht a day.

finally gave ken the undies. haha.. the colors r sooo baby.. gd that he loves them. haha.. o, n met his bf. funny.

ch.238 not happy

not happy with boss' way of handling things.

force a client to take thigns that they rejected?
wht the?

ch.237 cultural SHOCK!

had the gz team over for hot pot tonite. OMG, they used sooo much oil. everything is oil to them.
1) the sauces: 3 out of 3 - oil based. (!!!!) a) oil with garlic b) oil with hot pepper 3) oil with green pepper and soy sauce
2) the soup: they acatully boil oil and garlic and ginger first n then pour in the soup mix and water. The amount of oil wasn't tiny. i was shocked!
3) continue addition of pure oil into their bowl while eating. (!!!!!!)

i m in serisous need of a vege diet and i can't help but feel the growing of my already not so tiny stomach. While i was thinking to have salad at night, this one girl told me "DON"T!" coz the vege in china is so poisoned and dirty. (!!!!) she was like, "Really, DON"T". *O*

the hot pot was not bad, had tons of food. O, finalyl tasted the "Great wall" red wine.. it was bad. really bad. hahaa.. can't believe it. Dora brought it over and we all had some. again, she said i m fatter. haha. o well.

man, this is something funy.

btw, i will get to go watch the no limbs guy this sunday. yay ;)

ch.236 The pursuit of Jesus

sermon today talked about to pursuit Jesus, we have to:
1) Walk in line with God
2) Live without fear
3) Live out the challenges as God will not give u anything u can't handle

Last week, it was about how to do it:
1) be joyful
2) focus on God
3) spread the gospel


i m not too sure what's happening in my life right now. i just know that i am always tired. having homes in both hk and gz, travelling, spending time with friends and family, dealing with clients, dealing with boss, dealing with coworkers, learning i m so not ready for committment of a relationship, learning i m not sharp and still lack so much experience, learning that i need to equip myself and not be lazy, wanna do the hk passion p&w event, chruch's duties, exercising, bad stomach, can't handle the oily food... o.. i know i m not going thru anything that i can't handle as God wont' giv eme any that i can't but im so tired and i want to know how all these things lead me or help me to pursuit Jesus.. i m so tired. mentally and physically.

ch.235 feelin the lovin

auntie was here last nite. bought me 'ci-min-pay" all the way from hk. i m so touched.

quite sick after the dinner n i puked infront of my building.
went ot sing k with auntie and fay fay. funny.

argh. still sick but i m so glad my aunt came. thank G for that.

ch.234 sick at gz

feeling so sick.. not only phyiscally but i m ..
sick of being alone.
sick of taking care of myself.
sick of not meeting my friends.
sick of not hving a good meal.
sick of not hving someone to talk to.
sick of handling everything at work.
sick of the cultural difference.
sick of hving relationship problem.

G, i know u r here, pls help me feel better.

ch.233 Third

well, it's the 3rd time we met. had a casual lunch and chit chat.

just wanna say, if it's not for me, pls go away. if it's for me, pls show me more.

ch.232 MBA

went to the MBA fair today with mir, figured that it's not for me at this moment. first of all, not qualify --> degree + GMAT + 2plus yrs working experience as manager. well, not ready yet. Learning from my work is good but as i met the ppl today, i figured i am so behind. I m within this tiny world of mine, meeting only the average but not the best. I m not that sharp but I'd like to work with the better to improve myself. yet, my current work is giving me experience that I needed to build a stronger foundation for my future career. Today affirmed me that working for ET will not be forever for me.

I treasure what G has given me though, it's not like everyone got an opportunity to run a company from the beginning. I will try my best to do it and will do it well.

tmmr is worship team, me being the vocal. gotta sleep early tonite. keep praying for lam n grace, pat and jac, mom and dad, uncles and aunties.

ch.231 tired.. but it's worth it

very tired. taking the train from gz to hk. then to the worship team practice.

But it's all worth it. As it is for G. every time i go, it's always the perfect time. The minute i got there, the practice begins. And everything i got ppl to give me food. haha.

yes, G gives us test in little thing and he will take care of us in all things.

ch.230 G 1st

Found out what happened was a blessing to me. I started to read the Word for real, first time in my life. And as Louie G. said, i found myself saying "WOW" everytime i read. The more i m reading, the more I am in awe of the Lord. And the more I put Him first rather than myself. I chose to go to worship team instead of going back home to sleep; i choose to go for worship than to sleep in; I choose to go to aunt's place for the meeting than to jog. And I feel very good after all these decisions because it is the right thing to put G first in making all kinds of decision. I never regret and often feel even happier afterwards.

Solo will come to the service again this sunday. I am not sure what's going on but i've learnt my lesson. G first.

Blessed are those who fear the Lord, those who rejoice with trembling, those who walk in the path of the righteous.

More ideas are popping up: the praise & worship event, the new youth group, the website. all have to pray about first.