ch.179 「藝術」

「藝術」只是一個代名詞，它本身並沒有一個實体。

在現代藝術裡，「藝術」是一個動詞，它的定義隨著人的生活環境、思想模式、表達工具之change再不斷change。藝術某程度上只是個人生活的藝術性散發。所謂「好的藝術家」，是用自己的腦袋對生命作深度思考，用心地真切生活的人，use their experience 具體化呈現成為作品，與人分享。

人的生命質感取決於他的文化涵養。

創作是人類最痛苦的心智活動，創作最終面對的是自己，藝術家是能真實面對自己的人。


went to museum of art today. good time spent.

made lots of deciison these few days. gonna joing STM, worship team, get more sat. home gathering, education project with pat n jac., fam prayer session.

thx God for your guidiance.

CH.178 "Here I am"

Majesty (Here I Am)


Here I am, humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

ch.177 focus

self conscious about myself.
very.

had dinner with the sh ppl last nite. eddie said the part was half for jasmine and half for me. i thank him for that. i appreciate him thinks of me highly. i shd appreciate wht's happenign with me. not many ppl go the chance.

i wanan do so many things so many many. i wanna be able to do things like s+e, francis, ringo. to be gd at something. to be a generalist, like what eddie said, is hard to do in this world. but yes, he did accomplished his part and retired in his 30s.

i pray that i could go through more dear Lord. thx for the experience with T. it's great to hv gone thru it. wht else for me Lord? i m open for more!

ch.176 2 guys & 1 girl

dalton is back. wen tout wiht him n nelson tonite... what a combination. at first, it was awkward. Yes. it was. havn't been out/ seen them for ages and duno wht to say. so we drank. 1st roudn at Skitz, 1 glass of Guiness. then we went to another one for kilxxx, potato skins & wings.. pretty gd food n we all got relaxed abit.. n things became fun! as i said before, i like the tipsy feeling. everyone turned out to be more relax, n speak out more. i laughed alot. haha.. the same old me. really hvn't been out wiht them for years. then went to a "Sun Kwon Chiu chow food" on lockhart rd. the cold crab was sooo good. but damn, i thought it's 88, but it's acatully 880!! SHIT!
so damn expensive! but it's so gd to be a girl coz i dun hv to pay as much. hahaha.. i still paid but alot less. haha..

still abit tipsy now... good. liking it.

sleep better too.

ch.175 SZZZ trip

had a great time with the cheng's couple, jen and how.

SHG dinnner. had the "drunken shrimp". the bowl of shrimps were brought to our table alive and the waitress poured in the wine infront of us and got this timer to make suer the shrimps are drunk. My first bite was to bite the head off and damn, the tail of the shrimp were moving inside my mouth! the taste was only soso but it was fun.

After dinner, we walked walked walked around the city. checked out different clubs, baby face, baby k, finally settled at yuppies. i figured my alcohol acceptance has increased. wasn't feeling too tipsy after finishing up 1 chivas & 1 black label with the 5 of us. haha. got picked up by 2 jen-thought-they-were-gay-guys on the dance floor. danced on the stage with wil. had some crazy stupid games and suz was horrible, always got me drinking. then went off to carnival and had our ma-sa-ge! the masage girl was as gd as the one i had at gz but the overal procee was alrite and i think i fell asleep. we ended at 5am and then went to this "sleeping rooms" with individual capsule. it was like those japanese ones. pretty cool. then woke up at 10am and went to this nice chinese restaurant with good view next to a golf course for our dim sum brunch. the food was pretty good~ sure will go back again if i got time.

went back to hk afterwards and finally went to jen's home. smartie is such a big dog n the way he panted, i felt sorry for that big guy. i walked him for awhile and dun wanna do it anymore. the dog kept walking in zig-zag way and the more i looked at him, the more dizzy i got. n i figured.. i m liking cat more.

then got to wil's home n enjoyed the nice view out at his balcony and the OTO masage chair. o i love the leg part. it's great. n the chair is not too big and cheap comparatively. pretty nice.

n i finally had my 1st driving range today at cheung sha wan. wohoo~ i couldn't get the ball the first few.... many times and dun even know how to hold that pole. this sport really requires concentration and at the last 20 mins, i really concentrated and finally gotta hang of it and hit the ball out. the price for such is not expensive neither.. very economic sport.

n then went jogging after got back home. a rugby tournement was going on in the other field and when the team won, the guys went crazy. it was fun to watch them. i could felt the excitment with them. n i made me wanna joing a sport team.

what a busy day.

supposed to meet up with s+e but dun wanna... letz see we both forgot. argh. dun feel right.

ch.174 pk-ed

man, started the morning with a pk. wore my new pair of shoes and damn, slipped and did a one-leg-horse / press-leg after i closed the gate at the G/F. ppl saw. those ppl who worked at the bus stop saw me.
it was very hilarious but none of them laughed. it hurt too! damn and i was so embarrased. but it was super funny. ahhahaa

what a great day.

o, n i kinda yelled at eddie too, feel bad now.. *O*

o, n ariel is gonan work at eet. wht a small world. that's the only comment i hv.

ch.173 tired

so tired today.

day trip to gz is always tiring.

passion at work.. argh..

so tired...

Ch. 172 "have a nice life."

As phrased by dearest jen, i m such a "mo-Q-liu" girl. And being a "mo-Q-liu" gal, i did "mo-Q-liu" things. and found out there are lots of "mo-Q-liu" ppl out there. So, found that T felt that he "doesn't belong" again and apparently he and mr. H had some problems and somehow, their years of freindship ended. this is shocking to as i couldn't believe they are so stupid. i duno what happened, may be mr. H said somethign bad behind his back but somethigns, u just dun break it like that. A freind who supported and helped u for years, i got this 6th sense that T played a major part in this "arrogant-american" character that made things worse. His personalities of "i m always right" just couldn't work. I hope he and his wife could make it and his wife is supportive. I pray that he will behave and dun hurt his wife's heart. I pray that he himself could live a life that is filled with love and no more selfishness. I pray that someone could talkto him about God. i also pray for mr. H, that when he said that short sentence, i could feel his pain and anger and sadness. man... T is really losing it. i feel bad for them.

went to a seminar held by HKIM tonight with eddie. the speaker was quite good. I listened to him with 100% concentration. i think marketing is all about epxerience with common sense. after tonight, it really made me wanna go study marketing. i m really interested in it. Thank God fort his opportunity.

I m thankful for today. but still pray for T and his family and his situation. man, i really do hope them well.

ch.171 Humor, Playfulness, Hope & Optimism

美國著名心理學家馬丁. 沙尼文(Martin Seligman)所提倡的正向心理學中，論及快樂並非單純源自沒有病患或沒有遇上不愉快的事情，要享有精神健康，也非只著眼於不正常或有問題的地方，而是懂得發展個人的長處和價值(Strengths & Virtues)，建立正面的情緒、滿足感和人生意義。由此出發，假若我們懂得諒解和接受自己/他人的不足之處(Forgiveness & Mercy)，以幽默感和嬉笑的心情(Humor & Playfulness)看待人和事的輕快面，對未來常存一份希望和信念(Hope & Optimism)，那麼即使遇上逆境，也能縱容面對，享受箇中的經驗和結果。

i think i hv these and i thank God for giving me these.

thankful everyday.

ch.170 Anything Goes

What i did today...
1. church
speaker- dennis ng. my first impression was that, wow, wht a loud and emotional speaker! he's in his 40s and the way he preached made me feel like i m in a black church. haha.. he's alrite. telling us to focus on the lost. hey, i do pray for that but how to apply. i think he shd also talk about application. i thougth about francis and samuele when he talked about that. dear Lord, what shd i do? please teach me. i just keep praying for them.

2. Bible study
Read Mat ch.1 today. about the genealogy of jesus. at first, i was bored. didn't wanna read allt he naems but at the end, i found it more interesting. i was surprised that i acatully foudn it interesting. Who is who's father, why only 5 women were named, why included the gentiles and women and slave.. different names in luke but in the same line.. pretty interesting. Thanks pauline for her preparation.

3. Exercise
jogged again today at the Tai Hung East Field. It's great. Eventho i only jog for 15 mins, i felt gd already. exercising is great. i love it when i could feel my upper body moving. saw the "flying saucer" ppl again.. n i almost got hit by a soccer ball again today! it's great to live close over there.

4. Night out with the aunts and uncles
dinner at Hutchison House, the chiu chow restaurant. The food was alrite.. not THAT amazing. The bread with portguese sauce.. it was alirte... not that intriguing. anyway, the Show was better than i thought> Anything Goes< i duno how that related to the plot tho. haha.. but it's super funny to watch the fat gal doing tap dancing. haha.. christine sang welll but not too much singing tho. I shd get a hobby of mine n really do it. life is so much more than what i m seeing now. After the dinner, wentot patterson street for dessert via the "ding ding". felt great doing these things with the fam, n it's actually fun to hang iwth them. hanging with the older ppl r great. i love.

5. chatting online wiht Ms. C
funny to talk to her again. chagning job again, wht a surprise. haha. talking to her reminded me of T. she's part of that periof of memories. i m still letting go slowly...


O, aunt said that my life is very yuppie.ahha. really? n she said it'll be hard for me to get married if i continue to hv this life style. haha... argh. what i m doing is waht i like and i dun prefer to go out at nite for crazy drinks and k anymore, it's not worth the time n money and it's not that fun.

ch.169 layers

i jogged today. 9 laps, i think. it was pretty good.. when i jogged, i looked around me and looked up the sky.. n that made me felt more powerful and i just kept running and running. there was a tree at the field and today, lots of birds were on it and making loud voices. there r so many trees in the field but the birds only gathered at that one. it was pretty amazing. i taped it. The voices the birds were making were bizarrd. there was a lady doing her "hey gong" just next to the tree and the picture was like 2 ppl.. 1 = the lady , 1 = the tree.. standing together, doing their parts in the environement. thigns look bizarrd but everything harmonized. the branches of the n the birds were like the head of a person and then i thought, there r so many trees there n if each of them is a perosn, everyone of that got a special character and it's quite stunning. i taped over it, wiith the birds making noises and the trees, weird but harmonized.


as i ran, i figured.... life is just layers of layers of layers of different thigns. over the light pole, there's langham place, n when i turned to tan other angle, eventho it's the same thing, it looks different n we could start antoher layer from there. i m thinking.. that's life. life is about layers of layers. u borned as a blank piece of paper and as u live each day, layers have been added to your life. there's no gd and bad about it but things added up as layers. the layers are not 2-D only, when u turnto another angel, the thing that u thougth u percieved.. could turned out to be totally different. and when u look up , it's another picutre. we are living in this 3D world and there are so, so, so so so sososo many ways that u can view our world. When one layer is added, in your usual perception, it might be bad, but when u look up, it's soemthign that u dun expect and it's all good. The ppl that i met, especially meaning the sh crew, r they gd companians.. i duno. but i gotta see the few pages of the magazine that will be published soon and they are all so talented! meeting them are inspiraring. the little things that they let u know, it's eye opening already. i m so happy to see what s+e sent me today. i know he and francise worked so hard on the pic. it was his dream! the visual impact of the image was awesome! and francis did a great job on it! caught the moment and created the momentum of what is to be captured. luxury at war but maintained their luxurious character. AMAZING! go s+e! go cliff hanger! They are one of my layers and it's great to have this layer. Now i hv to see what to do with this layer.. or may be.. what's next.


i've moved to destination today. Timas helped and i m thankful. he's alrite. A person who got no baggages and dare to any changes. it was funny to see his face turning red after hving the green papaya salad. didn't know he couldn't eat spicy.

went ot the wine cellar today and talked to the lady boss. it was pretty cool. Bought an australian merlot and a french medoc. it was good. drinking the merlot right now and it tasted alot better when it's aried for an hour. o. i love the tipsy feeling.. seems like i could express more freely. i rmemebered s+e once said that too.. it's gd to be tipsy in life..

pat and jac went ot bkg today. it's great to hv them as my brother n sis in law. i love them and i want to hv a better relationship with jacquie. She's hving "snake" on her inner thigh and i'll pray for her.

man, it's so tough to be a Chrisitian.. Lord pls help me! i shd take all the action n concentrate on my work! Lord, u r treating me good, n i shd be grateful. :)

ch.168 getting back online

got francis to help fixed the computer for me.. n it was fixed by just pressing the on/off switch. ai.. woman... haha. it'sfunny how woman just got no clue with fixing things.

after fixing the comptuer, francis wanna check out my living environment and then when he was in my "ironing room", we saw a couple making out.. n we peeked. haha..

suddenly feel so mo loi in life.. i shd be hapyp with what i hv and enjo wht i hv. i feel stupid at times and i wanna spend my time more wisely. i wanna accomplish something.. i needa acommplish somethigns in my life..

i bought the painting tools from gz yesterday and yes i'll be starting the painting work. and i played with the keyboard for 3 songs.. 2 for T, 1 for s+e.

sometimes, just feel like.. what the hell m i doing here on earth? my days on earth.. i wanna make it more meaningful.

ch.167 blah

so tired today. didn't do much but just the mobile art at star ferry. it was qutie gd.

sigh. my days before 30.. i needa get more done. i guess i miss t becoz i was used to the days before. i really needa head up and find ways to enjoy my life.

argh.. pls help me Lord. the temptations are so crazy.. i dun wanna fall and i know fearign You is the best solution.