ch.115 i got lots of cool friends

God is always good to me.

All my freinds really care for me. I can tell them how i feel and they wil listen carefully to me. my ups and downs are all shared with freinds. Freinds whom i've know for 14 years or even longer, freinds from far away, freinds whom i've met in HK for just a year or so or even freinds of freind (which now became my freind) or my coworkers and even my boss, they r all so good to me.

some listened to me and just hung and sat with me when i needed a company,
some actually spent time with my mom becoz i m not around her,
some spared their home to let me cry it all out and picked me up from the street in 10 mins when i was so lost,
some gave me home appliances when i didn't even ask them to,
some encouraged me with simple words or quotes from powerful speakers,
some prayed with me,
some prayed for me,
some taught me lots of life experience,
some sent me little encouragement gift from far away,
all of them are there for me in all sorts of ways...

i m so blessed with all the freinds i have and i thank God for them.

even my brother and my lovely cousin, they r all so cool and good to me. this is some good life that i am having.

thanks to jen, mir, jacq, deb, bezz, agnes, wil, how, suzzana, da, wendy, charron, janfong, my coolest bro, jacquie, my lovely chris, benny the wise, tai, roy, bin, ga, steph, becca, gloria, shirley, fyn the women, glen the sexy, siuyan, dondon, rach, kitty, samuel my doctor, kaugor, sum the poet n k partner, miss pistol, mabel, miss pauline, raymond, amy, cyrus, julius the funny guy, clara shea, eddie, mingming, ruth, nellie, jackie, candice, asathor my teacher, yan, azura, mary, kylie, yukjair, and ar kar.

ch. 114 one hand can't clap

one hand can't clap.

i think i did something wrong too.

that leads to wht's happening right now. sigh..

ch.113 G.I.G.

God Is Good. I m really feeling a lot better.

I thank Him for all my prayers partners, for all the ppl who prayed for me.
this is amazing coz this must be God's work.
pray that i could continue to live and walk with God.

ch. 112 tvb queen

things that are happening.. they are just too crazy.

in His time. i know. i m learning to cope with all these.

drama is my name and i m so damn tired from work and shit in life.

i m so tired that when i blink, i need to close my eyes for 1 sec. my eyes r fucking dry.

i m asking you Lord, this is abit too much. wht's gonna happened after all these? pls show me the light. pls tell me that what i m experiencing is just part of your plan for my better future. i m really suffocating.

ch.111 ...

looks similar.. i think. y.. ? argh..

argh..

went to cheung chau had sea food tonite, n then went back out. enjoyed the sea breeze (that smelt like green apple) and talked wiht mir. have known her since 94, my gosh. God is gd to both of us.

went to gwen stefani's concert last nite, not that good coz the flow wasn't well planned..i think and it's like.. ppl not into the mood. but i m glad i spent time with the louey's sisters. they r cool.

so tired..but dun wanna sleep.

stock market went down like crazy. i wish i have more money to play.

I thank God for what i have now though. it's good. n i'll still keep praying for u and others in need.

ch.110 big apple

the annual report that i was invovled actually won the gold award under property at ARC. nice! and what's more is that it's gonna be competing in the best of show and best of overall annual report. the designer asked me to go to the dinner gala at NYC. haha. sweet. see if the client wanna go, if so, i'll force mr. boss to pay for my ticket n arrange me for a nice and fun trip at the big apple.

yay.

ch.109 just do it

have been saying a lot of "i wanna.. " these days.. but never really do it.
i guess i've always been like this.. always say "i wanna" but never really get things done.

yah, i do learn more about myself now.

figured.. u r right..

ch.108 conflicts

i wish to let go,
i wish to forget,
i wish to be happy,
i wish to move on...

... yet i can't stop praying for you.

even though you are not a good man,
even though you have hurt me with words and action...

... yet i can't stop praying for you...

but

i do not pray to be back with you,
i only pray that you will be back with God.

ch.107 prayer

dear god, pls gives T repentence leading him to the knowledge of the truth, so that he could be free from the captive of the evil. pray for his family and his freinds, so that they will know you. Please open the eyes of their heart, for them to listen to your words. Please also guard their hearts with the holy spirit and guide them to live a life with you.

Thank you for your blessings on me and my family.

i wish to praise you with him, Lord.

ch. 106 addiction attack

i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all thigns from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.
i should cut all things from him.

feels like bart simpson. lol.

Be focus.

ch. 105 六樓後座 & 我要戒lut...

I am loving my 六樓後座. like the comfy cozy feeling and the freedom of mind.

no more waiting for someone to call..
no more worrying for others.. for disappearing.. for not returning my call...

said soemthing very stupid today.. haha.. during the lunch with my boss and samuel.. about me working at GZ... i said.. then i'll have to 戒lut samuel la.. lol.. quite embarrassing..

but ya.. i really have to 戒lut XXX.

thx jen for staying over.

ch.104 so damn tired

So tired.

Some inspiration from today:

"Work as if you don't need any money,
Love as if nobody has hurt you,
Dance as if nobody is watching,
Sing as if nobody is listening,
Live as if you are in the paradise."

ch.103 老了十歲

Just suddenly had a crave with chinese pop lyrics.

The song title is 老了十歲.. which is another "4 letters words" given to me by a freind of mine. ha.. another freind gave me "3 letters words", which is "law-lai-jin". haha..

詞：林夕　
作曲：伍仲衡　
編曲/監製：伍仲衡

情緒　死了　元氣　散了
力氣　未夠令愛移調
和你　夢醒了　第三者彷佛必要
而你　樂意　被纏繞

＃怎想到我像被人隨便拋低的玩具
　還不知應要怪誰　難道我豁得出去
　怎想到你被別人狂追便成為伴侶
　善變沒有罪　卻是壯舉＃

＊良心可一敲即碎
　女人開始使我恐懼
　遺失了你才明白我會消失了生趣
　連心肝都可失去
　然後犧牲我的眼�
　讓我　為你難堪下去＊

難以　慘叫　唯有　苦笑
時間　為紀念你停掉
和你　避不了　指尖鬆脫的一秒
就似　自我　被焚燒

REPEAT＃＊

像老了十歲　巴不得一飲即醉
至少不必恐怕進睡
為一個你難承受痛苦是我的不對
消失的穢韝葚�
然後花光我的眼�
便會　累到無知睡去